Work and work and work...

After about almost a month i was on holiday..I've decided to be a part time programmer with a company somewhere in Heathrow. I went the interview twice and i've got the job. I work from home most of the time and go for a meeting once a week..so it seems easy but..trust me when i say the job is not easy..it's bloody difficult. Huh....i never seen something like that before. Just imagine a system that has been developed by more than 10 engineers and now only one engineer going to modify it. Means you have to understand 10 heads/brains that developed the system..and you only have one brain to handle it...tht's silly isn't? it is....

Anyway..i'm not moaning just feel a bit depress (depress??? really??LOL!). Well, not depress i just upset to myself because it causes me to complate the tasks a bit slow. Anyway...today am going to enjoy my week end and hopefully tmrw i will feel fresher and feel better...hehehehehe...

You know what i mean if i say i'm going to enjoy myself..it means i'm going to the club..LOL! not to drink honestly....just to look around and dancing...yeah of course..i love dancing! hehehehe...

OK..ok..i gotta go now...need to sort out my friend's mobile phone..going to the nearest shop..hehehe..buye....catch up soon xxxxx

It's 6.30 in the morning and i still can't sleep

But why my pillow is wet?

Ahhhh..it's 6.30 in the morning and i can see the sun rise lighting my window but my eyes are still very fresh since last night. Very very wired because i thought i should be tired but i didn't feel tired at all. Mmm...i was chatting with my sister in Malaysia until about 3 am and was thinking go to bed but i just cannot closed my eyes.

I've been searching a part time job. Mmm...thanks God i found a few. But i didn't apply yet. Next week i have to go to middlesex for an interview. Yeah!!!! I hope i will get it as i want it badly. I can't do nothing for 4 months. I want to do something productive. What..trading money??? Well, i can but once u open a position..you have to wait for a few days or a day if u are lucky. Within a few days..what am i going to do? just sit and watching the market? BORING!!!!! I am trading a few accounts at the moment anyway. Other than one is managed by a friend in KL.

Anyway..what i've done? Updated my CV..hehehehe...yeah..something very very important. Even though just a small effort but a huge value to myself.

BTW, my sister wants to buy my flight tickets from KL-London..but I refused. Why??? because i want to travel to europe..yeahh!!!!

p/s: this week wend i need to be away from this red sofa...hahahahaha..

The hurt is so bad and i can't take it any longer

Loving someone who wants to be your friend..what do u feel?

I am back again after a long boring day. Well, not really boring, but it was me so fussy...I hope i could find a part time job as soon as possible. Mmmm....i can't just sit and do nothing or mess around with my laptop. It's horrible..i like to do any job that i can work from home :)

So i am free and i can do my work from anywhere. Mmmm...i should do some research about my master's thesis/dissertation but i just not in mood to squeeze my brian at the moment. Well, if i do programming job in have to squeeze my brain to solve but not to find originality. Finding disseratation's title means finding something original (for me).

Well, well...i don't know...but suddenly i feel so sad and missing someone very much today. Yeah, i know very wired but...what to do. I was trying to forget it because i knew it's not gonna happen but..the more i try to forget it....my heart breaking even more..so how could i resist it?I've got this feeling since this afternoon and now about 11.30 pm UK time, it's getting worse. I want to see, i want to tell, i want to hold, i want to hug, i want to kiss...lol (sorry i am a bit naughty).

Anyway..i hope tmrw i will be able go to the gym and move my fatt ass..lol!!!!