I will go!! go!! go!! go!! to the UK

Gaze my future because nothing is certain but death. Before go to Metrojaya to buy suitcases, i went to the reclaimed area and think again should I? or Shouldn't I?

Yesterday, I've bought suitcases for my stuffs

Anyway, after a long thought, lastly I've decided to go to the UK with difficulties, sadness, hapiness, nevous-ness (lol!), worry-ness, oh whatever-ness....anything ending with "ness". However, if God says NO....then NO (this case might happen only if my visa application refused). I've emailed to my sponsor and they going to pay my tuition fee this week, once paid they will send the receipt to me so i could start my visa application. Anyway, "finger crossed" hopefully everything will be okey. I have a lot of things to do today, ironing, cleaning and might go to penang hills.

P/S: After my master degree i might continue my PHD in the UK as well (I hope different university), need to discuss this with the scholarship sponsor. O ya, btw i addicted with idayu's whistle register (kasih yang terpisah)sharper than Nikki's but i think Nikki uses her whistle register better than Idayu.

Master Degree and My job in the UK

First this is my latter of offer for master degree. I should be doing my Master in IT at this moment. My course cose suppose to be CS770.

My Latter of offer for postgraduate studies...i misss it so much.

Here is the file has been sent by Orbix company. Everything is here all the agreement is here. I still keep the file anyway!

Its a letter for me to clarify about my position, salary, transport, accomadation, etc.

Look at the date 25th of NOV 2008. I was doing my DB2 professional certificate that time. I've been offered by a company from the England already. I was so happy and excited but it ends up with sadness when my family did not agree with my decision.

First of all, I really hate to publish these two things. I really wanted to forget about it because .....honestly, i did incorrect decision this year. I really don't know why refused these two gold oppurtunities. I should not decide to take the job in Motorola. What can i say????? I hate for what i've decided. I hate myself and i blame myself and i never forgive myself for what i've done. This is what i call regretness. As my previous post about 5 things make you sad in the world, and one of them si REGRETNESS. Should I blame my family as well because they did not encourage me? Or should i blame myself because i wasn't independent at that time? FUCK OFF LIFE!!! Now i'm feeling very sad. Now i realize that what i've done is BULL SHIT!!!!! I should take my master degree or take the job in the UK. God gave me oppurtunities but I REFUSED IT GRUMPLY!!! I should say sorry for GOD. He gave me the best choices but i was so stuborn to make my own way. God gave me the best ways but i wanted to create my own way. I was so grumpy that time. Now i'm feel regret. Its too late!!!!!

But i promised to myself i will never let the second chance to go away. I will grab it! I know i have the skills i know i am brilliant and i know i am good.