It was a good bye party - the food

Chicken curry with potatoes

Ayam kampung nie..

Green vegetables cook with oyster sauce

Salted fish with white chilies

Fish cooked with honey spicy

It was the "first trip" of the dishes during my good bye party. I mean there were many but i didn't take the pictures for the others because i was busy chatting with my old friends who came in the party that night. Huh!!! It was a tiring party but i did enjoy it very much. Loved it so much especially the food. He..he..he...

I am so keen to cook those dishes in England but i could not find some of the main ingredients so it's' so difficult to make exactly the same taste. Anyway..i should post those pictures just after the party finished but i didn't have enough time for me. Huh....i was so busy and even when i was leaving Malaysia, i thought it was every way. I was not organised for what i was leaving.

One of the is a new recipe i've created. The last one!!!! It was very very tasty. They loved my cooking.

Now i know why some people do drink

This year has been a very very sad of me when someone who i used to love very much left me behind. We used to share all the sweet memories and all the good things in life. In fact we used to cry and laugh together for every single thing we did. But last Sunday was terrible for me and i just don’t know how am I going to live my life without my lover. That fucking email really hurt me very very much and i almost lost my life because of the email. It was very very sad of my life and i don’t know how to explain it by words or even verbally. I always thought i will have a forever relationship with this guy but i was wrong and i hated the fact that i always wrong in relationship matters.

I thought my life has been destroyed and never want to live my life anymore. This pain really killing me softly and i am speechless for everything. I can’t think properly and I just cannot do all the things that i used to do. Oh my God!!!! Help me in this.......

Now I know why some people do drink! Yes I do know now and now i know why some people do get drunk when they drink. I did it last night and it was not what i really want but i had to do it. So I did it and I was fucking drunk last night. I puked on the bed and also on the floor. I am very disappointed not only with myself but also with the person who left me behind. When i got up this morning i had hangover and needed some rest. I got up at 10 am this morning and had my simple breakfast. I was not hungry at all and i was not in a mood.

I wish i never met that fucking person in my life. But i was so fool because i trusted the person like hell. I am still very sad at the moment and i hope to recover very soon before am off to Paris. Argh...this is my fucking life. I can be very strong and i can do anything whatever I want but not to cope with love things. I hate love but how can human resist love?

P/s: updating from London on the train going back to luton

This how my hearts are (wish i could have many hearts)

My heart is burnt and broken..

Updating my blog from the coffee bean shop at LCCT..in 15 minutes i will be going on the plane. Huh..i wish it was a business class cabin. LOLZ!!! I am going to hate the journey because it's too long. OMG!!!! Bloody hell!!!! I heart is breaking because something happened and i am so sad going back to the UK now. I wish i could cancel the flight and not going back to the UK anymore. But i have to go back there..i know my future will start at there. So that's why i have to go back to England. I hope to have a safe and pleasant journey. I am very sad...and fucking sad. I'm not in mood to do anything......i am tired..it has been 3 days in a row i had 1.5 hours sleep. I hope i can sleep on the plane for at least 80% of the journey. Mmmm......

Kinabalu lodge restaurant. It's steam board time

My nephew is scooping his part

I fucking love this picture

It's my turn..lolz

The dinner

My niece is doing it

Well, well well...this is another update before am going to bed. I am tired as i just got back frm KK and now i am in KLIA staying with one of the near by hotels and now resting myself. It's 3.42 am and i really should have a rest for the long journey tmrw but i don't really care about it so i can sleep on the plane tmrw. It's was very sad and tiring for me. Arghhh...I just want to have some rest but i cannot do tht...my brain is very very active working and digesting something. Holly shit!!!!!! I hate this because it happened to me before. But never mind. This is life....and i must go..i know my strength. I am experienced to cope with all these.

OK, ok...steam boarding time eh. After my tiring week end in KM with my family..me, niece and nephew decided to have something different. I drove the can from KM heading to Ranau but dropped off in Kundasang for this delicious dinner. Wow...it was too big i guess for 3 of us. I could not finish it. Mmmm......

It was nice having a very very hot dinner ina cold night weather in Kundasang. Loved it so mcuh!

Rambutan time!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At my Dad's garden

It's me..smiling with my rambutans

Picking up the fruits

Loved it

For those who have my Facebook, i'm sure you all have seen these pictures because i've posted them on Facebook. Anyway..it was last week again when i was busy with my family and when i was in sabah. My parents' got gardens and so many different fruits in the garden. Lot of them from langsat,rambutans, bundu, bambangan, rongitom, cempedak, tarap and some other fruits...no need to list them all. I love rambutans so much..they are so nice but actually sometimes it's still depend with the types. This garden is not far from my where i live in sabah and here are some of the pictures. Enjoy 'em..............

Cooking at home

Mushrooms cooked with sausages with thick gravy

Wonderful bosou..

Fish cooked with Thai style

Rendang ayam masak sayur hijau

Am back after 6 days i disappeared from my blog and my world. I have been so busy with my family and i didn't even have time to look at my blog. Mmmmm.....i am currently at Concorde hotel at KLIA staying here for one night before heading up to London tomorrow afternoon. Days passed away and i didn't realize that i have to go back to London already. Yeah....that's how it has been. Mmm...I love cooking and i do cook a lot when i was in Sabah with my family. Even though i usually went out but half of the time i did cooking at home. Anyway, it's very nice to cook especially when your guests enjoyed the dishes. hahahahahahahahaha...here are some of the pictures were taken served to my family last week. They did enjoy it very very much...

OK, i gotta go now..and enjoy the pictures eh...