Tuesday, 23 December 2008
Monday, 22 December 2008
Tuesday, 16 December 2008
That's a fact,
It's a thing we can't deny
Like the fact that I will love you till I die.
We are twelve billion light years from the edge,
That's a guess,
No-one can ever say it's true
But I know that I will always be with you.
I'm warmed by the fire of your love everyday
So don't call me a liar,
Just believe everything that I say
There are six BILLION people in the world
More or less
and it makes me feel quite small
But you're the one I love the most of all
P/S: This is very nice song and i strongly recommend to listen this song. Just search on youtube.com and look at the lyrics, it is wonderful lyrics.
Monday, 15 December 2008
You ruin the relationship. Why? You told me lies and you made me cry. You lie me from the first time i met you in my life. You lied me all the times. You hurt me too much. You took away my life and you throw it into the dark sea. You said you love, but why hurt? You said you miss but why lie? You said you want but why separate? You said happiness but why sadness? You its nice but why pain? You stab me, you kill me, you hurt me, you sink me, you destroyed me, what else? You can do whatever you want.....just do...let me die and please finish it.
Friday, 12 December 2008
Aku amat menyangi dirimu. Akan ku lakukan segalanya demi untukmu. Kalau saja, ku mampu memberikan separuh dari hidupku padamu, akan ku berikan lebih agar dirimu hidup lebih lama dari diriku. Sayang, cintamu terlalu agung buat diriku. Kau ibarat permata yang tersembunyi di lautan padang pasir.
Jarak yang memisahkan antara kita terlalu kejam. Hari demi hari, air mataku berderai membasahi pipi. Ku seringkali gagal mengawal emosi diri ini. Maafkan diriku sayang. Segala kenangan yang pernah kita sulam bersama akanku abadikan disudut hati ini, buat tatapan diriku di dunia yang lain.
Maafkan aku, kerana aku terpaksa pergi jauh darimu. Kita tidak mungkin akan bersama lagi buat selamanya. Aku terlalu penat memutarkan roda kehidupan ini. Suda tiba masanya untuk aku menghentikan putaran roda ini dan berehat buat selamanya. Terlalu sukar bagi diriku untuk merungkai satu per satu, namun itulah yang akan kulakukan. Kita akan terpisah and kita akan berada di dua dunia yang berbeza. Hanya hembusan bayu yang mampu kukirimkan untuk dirimu.
Ku pinta agar kau melupakan diriku untuk selamanya. Jangan disimpan kenangan yang ada antara kita. Anggap saja kenangan-kenangan itu ibarat mimpi yang akan hilang kala kau bangun di waktu pagi. Semoga kau akan menemui kekasih yang lebih indah dihatimu. Biarlah ku mengundur diri. Ku korbankan diri ini demi kebahagianku. Walaupun perit dan derita, namun akan ku hadapinya dangan cara yang kupilih ini.
Deruan angin terlalu merdu memangil namaku untuk menghentikan roda kehidupan ini. Dedaunan melambai kegirangan menyambut pemergianku. Ombak berhempasan kencang menyeru pemergianku. Hujan semakin lebat memaksa diriku melangkah ke dunia baru. Dengupan jantungku semakin kencang melihat darah di lenganku. Jari jemariku terketar ketar menahan kesakitan. Bibir merahku berubah warna. Pandanganku semakin kabur. Keringatku terus membasahi tubuhku yang semakin kaku.
Maafkan aku segala kesilapan yang pernah kulakukan padamu. Terimalah salam kemaafan ku yang terakhir buat dirimu. Maafka aku kerna segala janji-janji yang pernah kita cipta hanya menjadi kenangan. Tapi diri ini terlalu sakit dan derita setiap kali ku mengorak langkahku. Aku terlalu sakit sayang. Aku terlalu penat. Selamat tinggal sayangku....relakan pemergianku.
Current mode: Feel sad. Are going to leave your beloved one?
Wednesday, 10 December 2008
Argh.....first of all, what i'm going to say is SHIT!!!! because i took my camera with me but.....i really forgot to take pic of the foods. At the end of it...i just took two of them. I don't know why, I think maybe because i talked too much so that is why i forgot it. Oh SHIT!!!! one more time. The time i realized is my last 2 meals. And that were my kueh tiaw soup and dessert. Oh..its ok, nevermind. So what now? This afternoon i was so tired running around with my friend. You know what? Because we want were looking for Christmas acessories. Ahhh...so my friend said to me ....so tired today and why not we have our dinner at Hotel. So I said...mmmm..let me see my budget. So i know still on budget..so i decided to have our dinner at the hotel...hehehe
Tuesday, 9 December 2008
So..what next? Well...i went to several airway websites and start my survey again. After 20 mins doing my survey i did realize that i cannot request an open ticket via online (what a silly tought of me?). So i said to myself, oh..that means i have to buy it from an agent or go to their counters and ask for an open ticket. Oh shit!! this is redicilous. So i said, OK fine maybe i have to go out to the town. So i get prepare of myself. When i was in the town today, i did realize i am having problem. U know why? I did not know where are these places located. I want to go to MAS first but where to go? And then Singapore airline...but where? Cathy pacific? Gulfair? Emirates airline? Thai airlines? Oh...shit and crap...I really hate to this thing because i really prefer to buy it via online instead of queuing.
Oh..yeah...come on!!! So lastly, i went to shopping complex information and ask them where are these places and how shall I go there. And luckly, I rang my friend and asked him where to go. Oh yes!!! He knows because he had experiences travel around the world before. But, even though he knows, But i still have the difficulties. What was that? Oh..very unlucky because the places are saperated each other and i have to go from here to there and from there to here (if u know what i mean). Huh!!!! what a tiring day huh??? I almost feed up actually because its not easy. Even though the company pay the tickets for me but still very difficult because i have to get the best price (not necessary the cheapest).
So..after done my job for today i got back. Ops..before that i had my early dinner at chinese restaurant and it was about 6.30 pm. Opssss....too early actually. But what to do? Hehehe...so after had my dinner i got back home and went to bed and just thinking about the tickets and my journey. But folks, I didn't buy anything just had my survey..Very..very tired. So far i think i prefer 2 airlines. They are Malaysia Airline and Singapore Airline. For your information Singapore airline is the best airline in 2007 in the world and Malaysia airline was ranked 3rd. I know the price is a bit expensive but...its ok, because the company will pay it.
Anyway....thats it. I'm going to bed now.......bye...
Saturday, 6 December 2008
Actually the reasons are the lecture was so boring and the lab is so very cold (haven't go to UK yet!!lol!!). So yesterday i was thinking to myself (belum di UK suda mati kesejukan..belum lagi di UK..hahhaa). Anyway, at the end of my silly dilemma i decided not go to class. I dont know..i just feel so lazy and really not in mood to learn something today. I really want to be free and dont want to think anything. I was so tension with my life's dilemma. To take the job offer or to take the master degree offer. Oh shit!!! i hate to think about it. I really hate to think about it. Actually, sometimes i feel regret because i applied the job.
Shit myself if i take the offer or if i take off the offer (nah...another silly alias crap talk frm me). Fuck off!!! sorry i'm "merapu" again today. I didn't mean it but i hate to (i have no choice). So i was on my little matt this morning and my left brain squeezing my right brain to think another things. U know what? Huh!!!! to be honest, i really don't want to leave someone i love if i fly to the UK. But when i rethink about my ambition, it seems like i have to take the offer. Well folks, actually my original plan was to be a lecturer that is why i was so excited to futher my studies.
So yesterday i went to my Prof's office and had some discussion with her regarding to the offer. So i told her everything about the offer and she really encourage me to take the offer, however she adviced me to do some inquiries first. So i met my another lecturer, she is head programme coordinator and discussed the same thing. Oh yeah..i'm tired of it. My brain keep thinking about it every single second. FUCK OFF!!!! I'm tired thinking about it. OK..now my family, i called my mom. And my mom said "ko mo pigi karaja sana england kah? (do you want go to the UK for a job?)...Opss.....i felt dying...my heart "danced"..and i said.."macam mana mami tau?" (moom, how did u know?)...and mom replied "Kakak ko bagitau" (your sister told me)..nah...OMG...why she told mom...why...why...why...!!!!!!
I do not mind, but not the right time to tell my mom and dad yet. I will tell them personally when I get back. So my mom gave me "yellow light" (mom haven't make up her mind yet)...so my sister work as a teacher at KM...she also doesn't agree but at the end of our conversation she said yes (Thanks God). Now my sister who is teacher also at SM John Tuaran. Nah....i got head ace with her..she advised me like i never been advised before. "Mami sama Bapa makin tua tuh..kau lah yang jaga dia sebab ko tuh anak bongsu..." (mom and dad is getting older..you are the one have to take care of them)...nah...dead shit!!!
My sister talking crap to me (maybe there is a truth of it). But i think to myself...i always love my parents and always remember them, but i don't want because of them i have to stay with them and can't go anywhere. I have my future and I have my ambition. I need to start my first step in my life. My sister said "Adik, jauh sangat tuh..inda paya lah ko pi sana...kalau ada apa2 susah nanti ko mau balik". I'm so sorry but most of my sisters are very traditional thinking. I know there is a truth of it, but sometimes we have to be brave in doing something.
We do not know until we tried. If something happened, thst is what we called experience. (Sorry to say but this is my way). So i ask my another sister. She has her own business and she said YES but becareful. She is very sporting and her thought is almost like mine. She is very brave in doing something. Another sister. She is work in HQE KK. Well...this is very different. She said "Bah ambik bah..tapi kalau suda jadi kaya jangan lupa kami..and she laughed" (take it! but do not forget us when getting rich)....i know she is a little bit silly..very open minded actually.
Argh.....made me headace actually!!! So back to my original plan, to be a lecturer..I asked my Prof how mush is the basic salary for lecturer. And she said RM4000 ++. Wow...that is good enough. Master degree's offer letter is in my hand. So what shall i do? Continue study and be a lecturer???? So i think again about my salary if i take the offer...converted to to malaysia currency it is about RM15000(depends on the exchange rate). Wow...thats good money!!! Accomadition and transport will be provided. Good enough i think!! So yesterday and last night i was looking for my flight ticket direct from KL to London. And return way tickets about RM8000 -RM12000. I did checked Malaysia airlines, Cathay pacific, Singapore airlines, British airlines, Emiriates airline.
In fact, some of the airlines will stop at Dubai and also Hong Kong and the to London. Well..i do not mind about the price, because the company will pay for it. But i do mind the very long journey...argh!!!! (scary actually). So i was so tired to think about it and Got up and had my shower this morning. I picked up my dirty chlotes and put into my beg. Hahaha...took the train from shah alam and go to the terminal station. Now i'm currently in the termanal station and waiting my bus. Sorry dudes, i have to be rambler today. I was so boring and i really need to empty my mind. I think this is my longest post I've written.
Friday, 5 December 2008
Wednesday, 3 December 2008
"Hello, Happy Belated day. I'm sorry I could not wish you yesterday. I was so busy with my professional certificate. I will be back to Sabah maybe be for just a week before fly to the UK for a job. Wish you had a great bday and may God bless you always. Andrik here" (just in case if she already deleted my number)
So she replied me:
"Thank you very much Andrik. I thought you forgot it already. You know what, i was about to call you yesterday. I just wanna hear your wish. Thank you at last i heard it from you. Opss..I almost forgot good luck in your job. May God always be with you whereever."
So i just smile on her message. Last night i'm about going to bed. My mobile phone beeping...and i checked into my inbox and i saw her message again.
"Andrik, I wanna ask you something. I hope you answer me honestly but if you think it is difficult for you...nevermind. I'll understand. I have no rite to force you. Who knows, maybe i'll feel more relief if i know the trudth. Andrik do you really throw away all your feeling for me and not even left a piece of it insode your heart? and is there a chance for us 2b together again?"
OMG....Now I really realize she is in deep love with me. I never think about it anymore. I mean i just assume she is my friend now and i never think to be his gf. In fact, at this moment i am really focus on my studies and career. I am so sorry to her. But she always the best and all my memories with her will never dissapeared.
Sunday, 30 November 2008
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Friday, 14 November 2008
After all the constrains, he is looking forward for his thesis presentation on 20th of Nov.
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Monday, 10 November 2008
Saturday, 8 November 2008
When i was at KL sentral, i saw a little stall at there. And i saw she was selling sarawak layer cake. Wow...i know it is a little bit expensive. But since i really fancy that cake and think their cakes are better than Secret recipie, so i decided to buy one. So when i was so..so busy completing my thesis at the same time i'm eating this cake. What a delicious cake....yummmyyy....this is the best cake i've eaten in my life...seriously....
Sunday, 2 November 2008
Hahahah....all these pictures were taken during me and my nieces having gathering. So we decided to play bowling. Huhuh....yes....i won two rounds..hahha...as usual, it was my happening week end again. Sorry guys I suppose to post these pictures last week, But i was very busy and have no time to post the pics.