Mengapa aku kecewa dan sedih

OK..this post should be written in Malay language but for some reasons after typing a few words i felt a bit funny. Then at last i decided to wrote this post in english. It has been sometimes since i last updated my blog. Honestly i was pretty busy with my daliy life and i don't know why everytime i had a little bit time to go online i did utilise it to update my blog but went online on facebook. I don't know why but this is what i call the social networking is changing and experiencing evolution.

I feel very sad since i received an email from someone told me tht i didn't get it. The worst thing is i didn't even shortlisted for an interview. It breaks my heart terribly and since that moment i can't sleep until now. It has been few weeks and i don't know what to do now. I have set my mind for it and i have prepared for it. I rally thought i will get it. In fact i was quite confident that i will get it. But i was wrong and i am disspointed. I have tried to tell myself maybe it's not my luck this time but i cannot accept it at the moment. I feel very sad and feel like my whole world has collapsed.

I am slowly raising but everytime i try my wings are broken and i can't do it at all. I believe every of us has the ambition that make us stronger and motivated. I want this badly that is why i have been keep in touch with the people wanted to know the result. Sadly i didn't get it even though i want it badly. I really thought i would get but all i received was a sorry email.

I don't know why i didn't get it and i would like to know the reasons. I believe i do have the ability and i believe that i do have whatever skills required. I do have the knowledge and i believe that i can learn things even though i never learned them before. I know i can do it and i know that i can work it quite well.

Missing this oppurtinity is like missing half of my body. I just hope that i will get it. I have prayed to God that i want it badly and i have asked God to help me. But it seems like God has a better plan for me or maybe God thinks something better for me. Or maybe God thinks it wasn't for me? I don't know and i don't have the answer. It has been days i have been thinking about the answer but my mind couldn't work out the answer. Shall i surrender? or shall i just leave it? or shall i wait? or shall i fight for it? I don't know..honestly...